Never fucking kill yourself

this is a list of reasons i won't ever kill myself.

• i met a lot of beautiful trans femmes today, who carry so much love in them.
• i made some music today.
• the air smelled so nice this morning.
• a light wears my shirt and thinks of me.
• i played and lost 2 games of solitaire in my favourite café and you can't fucking do that if youre fucking dead.
• i listened to the whole powaqqatsi soundtrack for the first time in a while on full blast.
• trans people see me.
• people think about me when they see birds, and think of birds when they think of me.
• i am loved.
• today i listened to a wood pidgeon, calling into the quiet from the head of a statue of roughly hewn stone.